Friday, May 30, 2008

1 week

1 week from today & G will be finished w/ chemo. Yeah! We are all so ready for the chemo to be over. I hope the cancer is all gone & never to return. Hopefully he will be cleared to return to work next month. The medical bills are high & need to be paid off.
G is doing better. He had a day this week where he was just not happy. He said he was mad. He was tired of chemo, he was tired of being sick, he was tired of being home & he was tired of partial pay.
I understand how he feels & it's not my body. He was better yesterday. Tuesday was my day to be mad. I had to go to work so it didn't last long. My job doesn't care what's going on personally. I get paid to do a job & that's what they expect. I shook it off & wrote in my personal journal.
Colin has been a joy he makes us both smile. He's such a happy little boy.
I think I found a summer camp for him. I go to check it out today. I'm giving up one of my
scrapping trips to pay for it but I think he's worth the sacrifice.

I've started walking a 2 miles a day. I'm working on my quest to get healthier. I only do it 5 days a week. I need a break on the weekends. I've been walking for 3 weeks. Next week I'm adding stair climbing. Gasp. :)

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Rough Chemo

Yesterday's chemo treatment did not end well. G got sick after it ended. He seemed OK when we were in the elevator then he got quiet. I asked was he not feeling well & he nodded. I'll spare you the rest of the details.
During the Dr visit before the treatment he told the Dr about his symptoms. He has a hard time w/ his hands & feet. Sometimes he couldn't stand for long. The Dr sd it's good chemo is ending soon for him.

I feel so helpless when he gets sick there is nothing I can do to make him better. I'm wake tonight in the wee hours because I keep checking on him. I can't seem to get back to sleep.

I was chatting w/ one of the ladies I see every time we go to the cancer center for chemo. She's always in a good mood. She was telling me about the different sessions of chemo. She had 4. She's gone through what we are going through 4 different times. She said most of the time she was able to work except w/ ______ drug. I think this is the drug G is on. She said it was a rough one. We've been fighting this chemo battle since last year. It feels so long to me, yet I know we are fortunate. This woman has been fighting this round of chemo for 1 yr. She said at least she didn't loose her hair this time. She ran her fingers through her beautiful curly hair, as she told me her hair was straight before & she never had a curl until now. It came back from one of her sessions completely curly.
I guess I'm really wake because of the amount of young people I see, it's seems every visit I see a new person that's looks so young. I wonder about the lady that looked so fail that we haven't seen in months. This was not her first battle w/ cancer.

Yesterday was our anniversary. We exchanged gifts before we went to chemo. It wasn't our ideal way to spend our anniversary but it beats the alternative. I can't help but wonder about the people that chemo doesn't work, natural or alternative medicine doesn't work. They may not see another anniversary. I'm thankful my husband is on his way to becoming healthy & alive.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008


I found out yesterday that Colin is not eating his lunch. He's hiding it in his napkin. I noticed about a month ago that his lunch pail was coming home full. I told him if he didn't eat his lunch he wouldn't get a treat in the evenings.
I suspect he has not been eating it all of this time. I told my mom the other day that he's going through a growing spurt because he was eating so much in the evenings. Now I know why he was so hungry.
What bothers me is he had no protein all day long. It's hard to do you best in school without the right nutrition. My goal this summer is to teach him about proper nutrition on his level.

G has had issues w/ pain in his feet & legs. This is his few days break. He has chemo Friday.

Monday, May 19, 2008

Nice weekend

We had a very nice weekend. I spent a little time outside. Looking at the patio area. I say looking because I really didn't clean much. I pulled a weed or 2 in the flower bed & got a little sun. It was a beautiful weekend.
I organized my glitters & paint so I can easily take some of them to crops.
G was a little tired all weekend.

Friday, May 16, 2008

21 days & counting

We will spend time together this weekend. G gave me my Mother's Day gift before he left but I didn't want to go out to dinner. I didn't want to be rushed w/ dinner so we will go out this weekend. I also want to work in the flower bed.
I added a chemo ticker. We are so excited to have 21 days left until G is finished w/ chemo.
He's had chemo since Dec 2007.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

G's home

G made it home safe & sound. Colin & I were excited to see him. He's very tired. I'm sure he will be resting most of today.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008


I've been forgetful. Last night I forgot to put Colin's lunch in the refrigerator after I made it. Monday night I put chicken in the oven to bake. I forgot to turn the oven on & left the chicken in the oven all night & the next day. This hurt the wallet too because it was organic chicken. We all know it's not cheap.
I recently forgot Colin's shoes. Mom & Dad (thank you both) are taking him to school for me since G is out of town.
I had to leave work; go home & get him shoes to wear to school.

Monday, May 12, 2008

Mother's Day

I had a quiet mother's day. Colin & I went to church. G is still out of town. His oldest daughter graduated college. She's going straight to graduate school. Good move; I wished I would have got my masters immediately after under grad.

I got to sb (scrapbook) Saturday. The best mother's day weekend was to spend time doing what I wanted to do. Thanks Dad & Mom for baby sitting.

Thursday, May 8, 2008

first mow of 2008

I'm glad this was the back yard. Colin helped daddy mow the lawn. :) Daddy was picking up sticks from the last storm. G doesn't have the energy to do the yard work. We are very fortunate to have my dad's help. Thanks Dad!

Monday, May 5, 2008


Chemo went OK. He slept a lot in the beginning. I scrapped a couple of sb (scrapbook) pages of our cruise trip. He's sleeping quite a bit; he has a lot of fatigue.

I sb Saturday & my Aunt J kept Colin. Thank you J! Colin had a great time. They went to the zoo. I'm sure they will have some great photos. I made the mistake of saying I had zoo sb paper. Colin wanted to see it. I'll buy some sb zoo paper just for him. I have plans for the paper I already have for zoo pages. The sb store had some that was a little juvenile for my taste. It will be perfect for Colin to sb his own pages.

G slept most of Sunday. He slept more than normal in my opinion. During the Dr visit on Friday he told the Dr that he has a lot of fatigue. The Dr never says anything other than, "That's normal". Then he says call if there is a problem. G never does call. I guess he knows the answer will be that's normal. He's having issues w/ his feet tingling & cold.
We will all be so glad when chemo is over. We are almost finish!!!!!!!!!!!