Dad

My dad is wonderful. He came over Saturday & mowed our lawn. Grover doesn't have the energy to take care of our lawn.
Colin helped dad cut the lawn. I got some photos of them. It's pretty clear that Colin's in the way when they are cutting it together. A few times Colin did a row or two himself w/ us close.
He had trouble turning the corners. He didn't cut long because he got tired.

It's been so nice to look at a good looking lawn. I love a well manicured lawn. My orchid bloomed & they look so nice. I need to finish weeding the flower bed. Maybe in a couple of weeks.

Earth weekend

G finished his chemo so he gets 6 days break & we start over again Friday. I scrap next weekend; I'm so over due.

It was Earth week this week. I enjoyed the Oprah show on Earth day. We are switching out light bulbs to more eco friendly bulbs as they burn out. I particially weeded my flower bed.

Happy Birthday

G got some good news. He had a CEA blood test was under 5; which is great. 2 more chemo sessions to go.
He's got some really cute birthday cards.

I had a terrible fall late the other night. I have a case of whiplash. My wrist were hurting but they are better.

Beautiful day

It is a gorgeous day, right now it's sunny & 75 degrees. I sat outside soaking up the sun & on my laptop until I got hot. I submitted Colin's pancake recipe to starkpeople.com
http://recipes.sparkpeople.com/recipe-detail.asp?recipe=287327
Make them & see what you think. Colin is a picky eater & he loves them. I use organic maple syrup on them for Colin. I like them w/ no syrup & rolled up. Sometimes I roll them up around fake sausage or turkey sausage. I'm always looking for breakfast ideas that are easy to take & eat at work.

ramblings about time for yourself

I've recently seen & read some things that say take care of yourself, then take care of others. We all need to recharge, it's hard to keep giving to others when you are running on empty.
So, why do I feel guilty when I take time for myself. Why can't I get 3 uninterrupted hours to myself?

I think one reason is for years I've been told that I'm selfish. This never bothered me much when I was single. It bothers me now for someone to call me selfish, because I don't believe it's true. I spend much of my day doing things for others. So, why do I care what a few people think. I care because the people are important to me.
I wish I could just do what's best for me & not care what these people think. My plan is to make a change.

I've decided to not base my value as a woman on others opinions. I'm not June Clever; I have no desire to be & that's OK. I don't owe anyone an explanation on why time for myself is important. It's not my responsibility to please them or live up to their expectations. It's my responsibility to be happy & healthy. This will result in me being a better wife, mother, & human being.

Colin home sick

Colin is home sick today. He had a rough night. He was congested, sneezing & coughing most of the night. He didn't get better until after 4 a.m.
It's a tough allergy season this year. He doesn't have a fever but he got sick at school.
I just called to check on him, he was coughing every other word & breathing hard. He sd nana was in the garden. Now, when I call there is no answer.
G just finished up his Dr appt & is on his way to pick him up.

Pretzels

This is a post for my journaling in Colin's scrapbook.
First of all I want to say I love being Colin's mommy. It's true, he's challenging & not an easy going child. He had a strong will in the womb.

I make Colin's lunch every day. He is a very picky eater. He will eat the exact same lunch for months at a time. Yesterday, I added a small package of pretzels in his lunch. He ate them. Yeah! I was making his lunch last night & asked if he wanted pretzels. He sd "Yes Mommy,
I want pretzels everyday."

G is still feeling poorly. He's sleeping quite a bit.

off

I was off yesterday & today because G is not feeling well. Today he's better but he's been in bed all day. I'll work tomorrow. He has a birthday next week. I hope he's much better by then.

boo

Boo to feeling bad. G has the hardest time the first 3 days after a chemo session. This session is no different. He's having more nausea. I feel helpless. It's not much I can do to help him feel better. I'll be off tomorrow & take Colin to school. One day real soon; I'm going to run off & have a spa day.

stormy weather

I'm glad we had a beautiful weekend because this week has been stormy weather. Tuesday no one in town got any sleep w/ the sirens & storming all night long. A friend missed 1/2 day work today because of flooding around them.

G is feeling pretty good physically but apprehensive about starting it all over again Friday.
It must be so difficult for him to only get a 5 day break & start chemo for the next 3 weeks.
I know, I know it could be so much worse.

We cancelled our family trip for this month. He doesn't want to go.
I hope to go on a trip soon. I need to get out of this state; if just for a few days.

I love weekends

The weather is so beautiful. I put a clear coat of varnish on the front door. Colin played outside yesterday & today. Today he played bb w/ Staci. We had a great time soaking up some sun.
G sat outside & enjoyed the sun too.

Home sick

Colin is home sick today. He's sleeping. Yesterday when I picked him up from school he was sleeping. His teacher sd he had been sleepy all day. This morning the school called G to come pick him up. G had a chiro appt so my mom picked him up. G brought him home after his appt. Colin is sleeping. He doesn't have a fever. He has no appetite. I'm not sure if it's just a bug. If he's not better tomorrow we will go to the Dr. I'm not sure what to tell the Dr. other than he's sleeping day & night. All of this sleep is so not Colin.
He did have a fever over the weekend but not in a few days.

I'm sick myself. I'm fighting a sinus infection, migraine, carpel tunnel & back issues. I'm feeling
extra tires so maybe we caught one of the many virus bugs going around & around this year.

G got an estimate for his truck. Thank Goodness we have good insurance.

Bad day

Yesterday was a bad day. I spent 1-1/2 hr waiting to see the Orthopedic Dr. then I took off down the hall looking for someone. The helper sd they were waiting on my test results to be faxed. Well, I took the test 30 days ago & you just know knew you needed a copy.
Of course after I told her I wasn't going to wait any longer he came right in. I didn't care if they
had to reschedule or he could at least look at my xrays while we waited on the fax.
She brought the fax in & sd it just arrive; of course I looked at the top of the fax & the time; it arrived 20 min ago. I know there is no way they would wait on me for 1-1/2 hr. I wouldn't have minded waiting if there had been an emergency & not incompetence.

I pick up the kids & we go to moms they are doing their homework. Mom calls & ask me to bring the spare keys to her car. She locked herself out. I felt uncomfortable about leaving the kids so
I called G to see if he could take the keys or watch the kids. We were talking & I heard a huge noise. He was sitting at a stop sign; a large truck knocked a car into him on the drivers side.
We hung up so he could call 911. I called my BIL he was on the way to the children so I went to give mom the spare keys.
The emergency crew checked out G. His lower bp number was slightly elevated. He's going to the Dr today.

The day did improve in Colin's gymnastics class. He did extremely well. His teacher wants him to join the advance class. He wants to do both classes so we will see how it works out next Monday.